thebastion | Light years away from home, just my demons and I alone

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Light years away from home, just my demons and I alone

Who: Rin Okumura and anyone else in the Bastion
When: After Groups A and B return and the Core is installed
Where: Near the apartment building
Style: [these fun things]
Status: OOOOPEN

[So hey. There's this girl. She's been in this place for a while, helped out with a lot of things, and today she got to help do something awesome! Cores are important to the Bastion after all, so that's a good thing.

Except she kind of... lit herself on fire and a lot of people saw it.

Anyone want to talk to her about that?

In all seriousness, Rin can be found after all that hubbub taking a break near the apartments, outside because she really doesn't want to be in her room right now. She's nursing a bit of a wound on her thigh from sliding on her legs under the bird earlier, but whatever road rash she got from doing so is starting to fade finally. Her sword is lying next to her in the grass, and she's just on her back, watching the odd sky above the Bastion quietly.

Mostly because her ears are still kind of ringing from what Crona did.

Ringing ears won't stop her from holding a conversation, though, if anyone cares to bother her, and she's in a decent mood given their accomplishments.]

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[Wat.

Rin you are seriously uncoordinated. Bon is kind of just staring now.]

What, did becoming a girl make you fall over more?

[See that middle finger, Bon? It's allll for you, buddy.]

Screw you. My ears are still messed up.

[He is frowning, and not just because of that middle finger.]

Your ears still hurt?

[Her her hand falls, and with it a sigh escapes.]

Yeah... a little.

[He hadn't taken Rin's extra-sensitive hearing into account. He takes a moment to consider this, wondering if there is anything that can be done about it besides waiting for it to get better on it's own.]

...it shouldn't last too long. It's a shame we don't have any doctors here, though.

[Unfortunately that's probably all they can do. Though putting something warm on her ears might help.

For now she's just... going to stay where she landed. It's easier on her and it helps the fact that her face for just a second shows a little pain at thinking of a certain doctor.]

I'll be okay...

... and I didn't become a girl, stop sayin' that.

[Since Bon arrived so recently (not even a week before now), he barely knows any of the ~~NPCs~~ people here, and wasn't as affected by the sudden death of two of them.]

It's like you suddenly became one, you were a guy for as long as I knew you.

[It doesn't help that Rin is also missing her sister on top of that.]

So I have tits now, so what.

It's not just how you look.

[Whoops he's getting a little flustered here. He'll just look away.]

...

[Okay, sitting up now, complete with confused expression.]

Then what is it?

[SIGHHH explaining things with words is hard okay? He runs a hand through his hair as he tries to explain it.]

It's like...you're Okumura. There's no denying it, you act just like he would. And it feels just like at home, kinda.

But then you go and do something that's not like him at all, and I dunno if it's because you're a girl and he's a guy or if being here has changed you, but it reminds me that you're Okumura, but you're not my Okumura.

[He hopes that makes sense, because sometimes those moments are really jarring and awkward. Almost as awkward as saying all of this, even.]

[Oh. ... damn. That was... a lot heavier than she was expecting to hear, and it makes her both sad and self conscious at the same time. She tugs on her messy ponytail a little, her own gaze shifting away and the slightest bit of pink coming to her cheeks.]

I... I'unno, maybe I do things that he doesn't-- it's not like I can know, right? But...

[She pulls in a breath, with with the exhale admits something she's been keeping to herself since she arrived.]

I think it's this place. I don't always feel like myself here, y'know? Even back home after I learned what I was I was still me and home was still home there was just a lotta extra baggage on it, but this place isn't home. I'm workin' so damn hard here because I don't want to think about the fact that home isn't there anymore... because if I think about it I won't stop thinkin' about it and--...

[And she just wants to break down so damn bad but she can't. She refuses to let herself and she refuses to let anyone see her like that.]

[So it's not just him with all these worries, huh? Rin really was still Rin, even if she was about to start blubbering like a baby.

Bon should have figured, Rin was always sensitive to everything.]

It's just shitty all around. We can't go back, and going forward is really hard to do.

[But giving up and dying isn't an option either, not when they might be the only two from their world (worlds, technically) left alive. That thought isn't just a sad one, it makes Bon mad too.]

Why us? There's so many more people who're stronger than us, why did we survive?

[Emotions did come easier to her than they probably did to her male counterpart. It wasn't just "a girl thing" though chances are being raised and treated as any female with a protective father like Shiro facilitated some of that.

But she's still good at keeping it inside until she has that moment alone to deal with it, so she doesn't start crying. There's a sniffle, and her hands tighten where they're resting on her ankles, and she shakes her head slowly.]

I don't know. I've asked myself that a coupla times, but it's not like I got an answer any more than you do. You... you're human, at least. That makes sense. But me... ?

Are you kidding? It makes even more sense for you to survive. You're part fire demon. Everyone died from being burned to death.

[Seriously does he have to spell this out for her? But at least explaining things brings him back closer to his normal self.]

You surviving makes sense, but me? No, it's stupid. There's tons of people way more powerful than me, and they couldn't protect themselves.

... they did?

[She never touched any of the statues. She always did everything she could to avoid doing just that. If she had she probably would have broken more than she already is.

But she dismisses that bit for what Bon said after, shaking her head frantically.]

No, don't you get it? You're smart! And strong! You're what these people need, not me!

Don't give me that crap!

[Whoops yelling again. Sorry Rin this is sensitive to him.]

Koneko is smart, and he isn't here! Okumura-sensei is more capable than any of us, and he's not here! Renzou's family fights with fire, and they didn't survive it either!

It's not about who is and isn't capable, it's fucking random!

[And that's the most infuriating part.]

[Rin winced visibly, mouth opening to argue, but the second she started her voice just died in her throat. Mouth closed, and opened again, but nothing came out.

Eventually her head dropped instead, shoulders slumping once more as the only thing that was finally muttered was a weak 'I'm sorry...'

For the first time in probably... ever, Bon's yelling wasn't met with the same. She really didn't know how to handle any of this, and knowing it was all random just made her feel sick.]

[Bon's steam is gone quickly, and he falls back, not able to argue anymore. It's too tiring, and they have so much other crap to take care of.

While laying back, he rests his arm over his eyes, mostly to block the light that never goes away but also because he doesn't want to look at Rin right now.]

Shit, don't go apologizing like that. It's not your fault.

[She really is a lot more broken than she's letting on. Marie has a point - putting children, even children like them in this situation is almost more of a burden than they should rightfully be forced to handle.

When she speaks again, her voice is quieter than it usually is, and she doesn't even bother looking up at Bon after he's fallen back.]

I know. I just-- I really do envy how smart you are. And I think you can do a lot more do these people than I can.

Brains mean jack all if you don't have the strength to back it up.

[No matter how much Rin envies Bon, she still can at least protect people. She can do way more than Bon can possibly do, and it pisses him off to no end.

Rin really needs to give herself more credit.]

[There had been things Rin had been avoiding bringing up, because if there was even a remote chance that even MORE things were different between their worlds she probably would have called it quits, pulled a Crona and hid in a corner for the rest of her life.

But the way Bon was talking... okay, maybe she did need to give herself more credit but there was a point when Bon needed to not be so hard on himself, too.]

... did we-- you and Okumura-kun [god that sounds so weird] go to Kyoto?

Yeah?

[He remembers Kyoto, but he's not sure why Rin is bringing it up, so there's a touch of confusion to his voice. He's not following her train of logic there, so he's not sure why there's such a sudden jump in conversation topic.

Unless Rin is trying to talk about less-serious things. That he can understand.]

I went, too. And if you guys went I can pretty much guess what happened. And what you did.

[She finally lifts her head, eyes a bit red from near-crying, but no tears actually on her cheeks.]

I was there, Bon. You're no different than the one I know and I saw what you did. I'unno where you got this idea that you're not strong but you are. And yeah, if he's anything like me he probably gave you shit and said stupid things about wantin' to see Kyoto Tower, but you were still amazing. You are strong.

[Fuck.

He has to turn his head away from Rin, because he doesn't want to see her or have her see him. It's hard, okay? He has a hard time accepting that he's strong when all he can think is 'not strong enough to save everyone.'

But he doesn't want to deal with this crushing disappointment in himself. He wishes he could be more carefree like Rin.]

...

It was still dumb, there's lots more to Kyoto than the tower.

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