thebastion | [Day 229] Well some one has to stay behind [Open]

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[Day 229] Well some one has to stay behind [Open]

Who: Everyone who didn't go on the trip
Open: Open
When: Day 229
Where: The Bastion
What: Not everyone is going to go search for the Core. Some people have to stay behind and tend to the daily things in the Bastion, after all.
Format: Any
Warnings: n/a

[Regardless of the Bastion's current state, there are still things that need to be done from day to day. Some one has to attend to those things, and not everyone can just up and leave. Some people might not even want to leave, and there are even a select few that just can't.

So for those of you staying behind, make sure you're not strangers to your fellow survivors!]

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[ Yep, she'll stay here and sleep. ]

Takane?

[Here's that not!boyfriend you ordered.]

[ I didn't order him, Phantump did. :| /tsuns

She stirs a little. ]

Whaddaya want?

[ She probably looked like suuuuch a mess right now, in her tired and sleepy state. ]

[Tsun more, Takane.]

Phantump seemed worried about you. Are you feeling alright?

No better or worse than usual.

[ She sighs, covering her eyes with an arm. ]

Is it really so bad that I just want to come out here and be alone for a bit?

Well... no. But you're not exactly making us any less worried about you.

How the hell am I supposed to act, huh?!

[ She sat up at that point, glaring at Haruka. ]

Am I supposed to be all happy and joyous when our world's blown to smithereens and the world around us is in shambles as it is? And, OH, we could very well be sinking again soon if everyone who went out to find a core aren't successful! Isn't that just fantastic?! We all might just die anyway!

[ She looks away. Some part of her in the back of her mind knew that she didn't need to be taking everything out on Haruka. In fact, she hadn't wanted to. Ever. He was the last person in the world she wanted to take her frustrations out on. ]

Why the hell did this place decide to nab me here anyway? It's not like I can provide to this place the way everyone else here can ... I'm just some stupid teenager who can't even say what she's really feeling ...

I--... T... Takane... y...

[He was reasonably startled by her reaction. He had known from the start that she was upset about all this and not handling it well, but he had hoped just being there for her would have been enough to know that it wasn't entirely hopeless.

And that had... done nothing. Clearly.

Yelling at him was normal for Takane, sure, but that sort of explosion had a different level of emotion behind it. Pained, truly angry, all those things she had been bottling up until then.

His mouth worked a few times, and even Phantump had gone quiet at his side. Nothing came out, though, aside from a final near-silent mutter of "sorry..." before he turned and...

walked away.]

[ She heard him get up and start to leave, and all she could do was stay there, completely frozen.

Nonono. No ... nono, no. How could she have done that to him?! He didn't deserve it! Not at all! She had to move, she had to apologize, she had to ... she couldn't lose him. She couldn't just push away the one person in this place that she trusted the most!

She couldn't do this to someone she loved!

Her body moved again before she could think about it any more, rushing after him quickly and grabbing his hand. She trembled, scared that she'd actually done something to really make him want to leave her. For good. ]

H-Haruka ... Haruka, please don't ... please don't leave, I-I ...

[ Haruka had probably seen it the entire time, knowing her as well as he did, but right then she looked the part more than ever. She was just a scared young girl. ]

Edited 2014-09-16 06:19 (UTC)

You are not the only one who is upset about all this, Takane.

[Takane had probably never heard a stern, even angry tone from Haruka in the entire time she had known him. While it didn't show so much on his face, this was certainly not how she was used to him being. Gone was the bubbly smile and the hopeful eyes and left was just something that was almost... tired.

Tired of himself. Tired of her behavior. Tired of their situation constantly being so much less than what he felt they deserved.

But he had stopped walking.

If nothing else that was a sign that he didn't want to abandon her, even if he was upset.]

[ If she didn't know by then that she'd screwed up, she knew now. She'd never ever heard that sort of tone from him. Ever. And to know she'd caused that sort of tone to come from him put more cracks into her already taped together heart.

Tears came to her eyes, and rolled down her cheeks. She couldn't stop them now. Takane rubbed at her eyes with the hand that wasn't holding his, shoulders shaking with the sobs she hadn't let out for far too long. ]

I-I'm sorry Haruka ... I'm sorry, I love you, I didn't want to just blow up at you like that, I-I didn't mean to, I-I'm sorry, I'm so sorry ...

[ Guess who didn't realize there was a confession in the midst of her babbling? This girl. ]

[He didn't turn back.

He couldn't.

He didn't want to see tears on her face any more than he wanted her to see the tears on his.

But his hand moved, pulling hers away from his bulky sweater sleeve and going to take it gently in his own.]

Then why didn't you just... say so?

[She hadn't realized it, but he heard her words loud and clear.]

I miss everyone. I miss our families and our friends and our teacher and our school and that game we always used to play and everything from home. I miss it so much I... I feel pangs in my heart that I know have nothing to do with my condition but all I have here is you, Takane.

And if I can't do anything to help you then what good am I... ?

I ... I don't know! I'm just stupid and I can't do anything right unless I'm shooting monsters in some game! I don't even know why this place decided to spare me ...

[ If there was anyone she could talk to, it was Haruka. And she hadn't been doing that.

Hell, there was a chance she wouldn't even talk when she needed to after this, but at least right now she was. ]

I'm not like you. You're ... smart, and artistic, and you like people enough to actually want to help them. Even people like me who don't deserve the help.

[ She really was a selfish, horrible person. Even now, all she could think of was herself. She hadn't changed a bit from the person she was back home. ]

[His fingers slipped away from hers, but only so that he could turn and wrap his arms around her tightly, pulling her to his chest regardless of whatever protest she might put up.]

I like people, but I care about you. I almost lost you once, Takane. I don't want it to happen again. What I do here... what you do here... it doesn't matter to me. Just so long as you're here when I wake up in the morning and when I go to bed at night.

That's all I want... I just don't know what it is going to take to keep you there when all you do is hide from me...

[ At the sudden closeness, she froze. He was hugging her ... oh. Ok. And-- wait, did he just ... he ... cared ... about her? And ... oh.

Oh.

It was all she could do to just hold onto him tightly and cry into his chest. She didn't know what else she could say to that. ]

[He was, and he did.

And he does.

But he doesn't know what else to do either aside from keeping her close and waiting for her tears to stop.

And his because really, there was no way he was getting out of this without shedding a few...]

[ She had a lot of emotion just come spilling out all at once, so as much as she wanted to stop herself, she kept crying for quite a while. When she finally started to calm down, she found she couldn't speak for a little bit. And then when she could, all that came out was ... ]

M'sorry ...

[He's more worried that she's going to wear herself out from all of that than he's worried about her tears. It was obvious she needed to get that off her chest anyway.]

I... it's okay. I'm sorry I snapped at you.

N-No, I deserved it ... I shouldn't have taken out all of my anger on you.

[ She pulls away a little, wiping her face on her sleeve. ]

I understand it, though. I thought I was being helpful by trying to keep my spirits up for you, but I didn't realize I was only making things worse.

[He tugs his own sleeve down, reaching over to help her with her tears.]

... I wish I could keep my spirits up the way you do. All I can ever see is how bad all of this is. I don't know how you do it.

[ She sniffled again. And she hated herself a little more for it. ]

I spent most of my life knowing that I wasn't healthy and that I could die at any minute if something went wrong... as depressing as that is, it gave me every reason to not want to spend what I had of my life thinking about the sad things.

[There's a pause, and then he adds in quietly:]

But really, deep down... I did want to be like the other kids. I hated not being able to do all the things everyone else could, and being so tired at the end of the day I could barely sit up let alone do things like go to a movie or... or out on a date...

I think a part of me kept smiling because if I didn't, I would... break down crying and never stop...

[ Something within her had to have known that with his condition being so bad, he must have been really feeling awful. The whole smiling, happy guy thing ... that was all an act.

It broke her heart all over again, to know this. Right then, she felt she needed to do everything she possibly could to make him happy.

Of course, if he needed to cry, she wanted to support him, but ...

She'd rather she do what she can to make him genuinely happy. She grabbed his hands into her own, and before she could stop herself, she blurted out: ]

Let's go on a date!

[ ... wait did she just-- yes, she did.

and she wasn't going to take it back. not in a million years. ]

H-huh?!

[WELL THAT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE.

Now it's Haruka's turn to be completely stunned in to speechlessness.]

[ .... CRAP MAYBE SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT. Her face is turning completely red now. ]

Y-You heard me! You just said you wanted to go on one! So, let's go!

... I-If you feel up to it.

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