[day 186] you shoot me down, but I won't fall (closed)

[ourlegends]

Who: N and Hilda
Open: Closed
When: Day 186 - Night (After everyone is home from the Skyway Shenanigans)
Where: Their House (Pokemon Daycare)
What: Not every relationship is easy.
Format: Action Brackets
Warnings: Two very emotionally destroyed people and a lover's quarrel.

[ N had been gone for most of the day.

It worried Hilda, who had no idea where he had gone to. So, when he arrived back home, she was relieved. What she wasn't so relieved about was the state he was in. Ever since returning from wherever he had been all day, N had been barely responsive to her, even though she tried to talk to him.

With everything that had happened lately, Hilda had been blaming herself. For all of it. For not being strong enough to tell him about their world before this happened, for not being strong enough to be there for N, who was clearly not doing well ... for not being strong enough to take care of herself during all of this, too. The relationship she had with N was becoming even more fragile every day, and the tension between the two of them was thick.

She had to try to do something. She was afraid of losing him. She didn't want to lose him just because she was stupid and didn't talk to him when it needed to happen.

She sat next to him now, quiet for a long time.

Such a great start, Hilda thought to herself. She was already starting to beat herself up again. Finally, she reached out and tried to take his hand into her own. ]

N ...

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[Deep down, way, way deep down, N knew he should have told her where he was going. He should have told her and given her the chance to decide if she even wanted to come, rather than making that choice for her That in and of itself had little to do with the strain they were already feeling from the trip to the Daycare Center, and almost everything to do with the simple fact that this was not a state he wanted anyone to see him in.

Having AZ and Colin there, watching as he simply fell to complete pieces before them, screaming and throwing toys in that mockery of a child's play room, howling at the walls at a man that was no longer there, crying for the days he lost as a child...

He was ashamed of his actions, but had no logical way to control such an explosion of emotion.

It had left him even more drained, painfully so, and the ache in his chest had yet to go away. It was that much more difficult to face Hilda upon his return with a few more eggs and yet another Pokemon in tow, and he had been outside on the porch overlooking the yard ever since.

When she touched his hand, he didn't move. Didn't react. He just kept staring. Staring in to nothing, but actually reliving far too many painful memories to recount.]