Day 84 :: Open

[blackblooded]

Who: Crona and Ragnarok (blackblooded) and open
Open: Open
When: 84
Where: Bastion, then Skyway
What: Crona hasn't exactly been having the best week, and wants to do something useful
Format: action
Warnings: idk probably nothing

[There's only so long someone can stay locked up in their room with nothing to do before they get fed up with the same scenery and go outside. Even someone like Crona.

But the Bastion is always busy, humming with activity and people, and Crona can't handle being social right now. So the meister leaves the apartments and starts heading out towards the Skyway. Ragnarok hums in his meister's veins, excited about the potential of killing. And really, Crona doesn't disagree with him.

Besides, maybe, just maybe, Crona will find something useful.]

Comments

[unflattering]

No, I'm not. I'm not at all.

[At least he's being honest.]

I'm looking for Soul. I have a bad feeling that I'm going to find her with how everything else is going. Finding excuses to hate myself is all I can think to do right now.

[blackblooded]

....

You're right. You're not Maka. Maka wouldn't say something like that. Maka's brave, and Maka doesn't hate herself.

[unflattering]

I'm not a "herself" either.

Besides which, how do you know that your Maka never has moments where she hates herself?

["Hates" is putting it too strongly, though, being a perfectionist and beating himself up for the slightest thing done wrong is more accurate. He should not be saying "hate" at all, but then again he's a stupid-ass teenager and shouldn't even be having this conversation.]

Your Maka also supposedly destroyed the Kishin. That's not a reality in my world. The reality is you were the one that was intent on becoming the next Kishin. But you're here now, I'm here now. What are we supposed to do with that?

[blackblooded]

I know Maka. Maka doesn't hate herself. [Simple as that. Crona knows Maka.]

... maybe you didn't save me.

[Crona knows how to be cruel. Crona is Medusa's child.]

[unflattering]

[The break.

He swings out his fist, consumed in rage and indignation, aimed for Crona's face.]

I TRIED! You didn't want to be saved! You wanted to become one with the Kishin! But I was going to reach into the Kishin and pull you back out again, you idiot!

[blackblooded]

[Maka's fist slams into Crona's face, and Ragnarok snarls inside Crona's mind, bloodlust rising. Crona takes the punch.]

When I ran away, you found me. Lady Medusa couldn't find me but you did.

[unflattering]

When you ran away...

[He says, shaking.]

Medusa had you. She lied to me about you being captured by Arachne so I would cooperate with her. I fell right into Medusa's trap by killing Arachne, thinking she had you held hostage.

It was a lie. You were with Medusa the whole time, then you killed her.

[blackblooded]

... you trusted her. Lady Medusa. You trusted her?

[unflattering]

I wanted to believe she was telling the truth. I wanted to so badly, I convinced myself that she was.

[He rubs at his eyes with a sleeve and looks away.]

If it meant getting you back, yes, I entrusted my safety to Medusa.

[blackblooded]

You thought Lady Medusa would tell the truth?

Lady Medusa never ever tells the truth.

[unflattering]

I know.

[At least he knows now.]

I was foolish, but...that tends to happen when I think about you.

[blackblooded]

[Crona shudders, trying to calm down. Black blood forms a dark bruise on Crona's cheekbone.

Crona wants to go home. Just make this all stop, please, someone.]

[unflattering]

You said that Maka is the most important other person in your life...it's...the same for me too. You're the most important person in my life. If it hadn't been for you, I wouldn't be the person that you describe, though...it seems that I've gone backwards and have stopped being that person entirely.

[blackblooded]

You called me a liar.

[Crona just wants this to stop.]

[unflattering]

I was scared.

[Ah.

Fear, the feelings of inadequacy, those feelings never go away.]

I'm not justified in that, that's not why I'm telling you this, just...I was scared of the idea of someone important to me not really wanting me to be around.

[If only they could just wake up and find that this had been all a dream.]

[blackblooded]

Maka... I'm never going to not want you around. Ever.

[unflattering]

[He sniffs, wipes at his eyes again and looks off into the distance of the Skyway. Crona doesn't need to see him like this, especially not when they spoke of the Maka that's brave no matter what.

That's me. That is me, regardless of sex, but...gosh, courage isn't anything special, doesn't he know that?]

...Crona...I'm glad I'm not alone here. I'm glad that you're here. I wouldn't trade you for anybody else.

[blackblooded]

[A nod, not quite able to force a smile.]

I wouldn't trade you. Ever.

[unflattering]

[When Maka feels that he's able to control his tears, he faces Crona again and takes a step towards them. Then another, and another, until finally he's in close enough proximity to Crona.

Silently, he holds open his arms, the obvious gesture asking for a hug.]

[blackblooded]

[Crona steps forward as well, and offers an awkward hug.]

[unflattering]

[Crona you should know by now that Makas don't do awkward hugs, they go full out EMBRACE WITH ALL THE COURAGE OF THE WIND!!!]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...

[He's never going to stop saying that at this point.]

[blackblooded]

[And Maka, you should know by now that COURAGE EMBRACE is only going to get Crona to stiffen and freeze, panicked.

But Crona will try and be brave.]

I-i-i-it's okay, Maka.

[unflattering]

I'll never--ever--push you away again. We're in this together and nothing will change that.

[blackblooded]

[Crona's hands twitch, closing in the fabric of Maka's shirt, and the pink-haired meister just sort of collapses against Maka, sobbing.]

[unflattering]

[He's crying, they're crying, yes there's all these blubbery tears. It's really super embarrassing, actually.]

[blackblooded]

[Crona is never embarrassed by blubbery tears. Those are like Crona's specialty.]