thebastion | Day 84

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Day 84 :: Open

Who: Crona and Ragnarok (

blackblooded) and open
Open: Open
When: 84
Where: Bastion, then Skyway
What: Crona hasn't exactly been having the best week, and wants to do something useful
Format: action
Warnings: idk probably nothing

[There's only so long someone can stay locked up in their room with nothing to do before they get fed up with the same scenery and go outside. Even someone like Crona.

But the Bastion is always busy, humming with activity and people, and Crona can't handle being social right now. So the meister leaves the apartments and starts heading out towards the Skyway. Ragnarok hums in his meister's veins, excited about the potential of killing. And really, Crona doesn't disagree with him.

Besides, maybe, just maybe, Crona will find something useful.]

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[Trying again to find what he was looking for, Crona will find that they are not alone on the Skyway. Even if he's probably the last person they want to see, Maka is there searching once again for some sign of something familiar.

Something pings at his senses, and Maka turns to face Crona.]

[However, he cannot speak. Seeing them only causes a sick lurch of pain in his heart. Crona didn't want him around, Crona wanted him to get lost on the Skyway like Marie had, he wasn't "actually" Maka to Crona at all.

The more he thought about it, the angrier he became all over again.]

Crona.

[Maka. There's Maka. Most important person person Crona doesn't want to see right now closest dearest friend makes Crona so angry makes Crona want to scream and stop thinking and just go away forever and let Ragnarok take over and tell Crona what to do.

A step backwards. A shake of the head.

No. Not Maka. Not today.]

Crona, wait! [And he steps forward too.] Why? Tell me why you want me to go away! Tell me the truth.

[Something twists inside Crona's already unstable mind.

(Oh no. Maka cannot, cannot say this is Crona' fault. Crona did nothing, see? Not Crona's fault and if Maka tries to pin this on Crona? No, Crona won't stand that. Crona won't stand that at all. Crona is through with being pushed around.)

A few steps forward, head bowed. One hand shoved palm flat to Maka's chest, enough to knock the other meister backwards.]

My fault? No, no Maka it's not my fault. You won't listen. You won't listen to me when I say that I don't want you to leave, that you're Maka and that's all that matters. You won't listen and when I tell you the truth you call me a liar.

That's wrong.

It's nobody's FAULT!

[This whole thing is out of their control anyway, all that can be done is to react and adapt and--]

[Listen.]

[He's mixed up and lost and feels like a stranger to this world and has stopped considering how Crona might feel about any of this. Why? Crona is the most important person to him after Soul. He's lost everything, but Crona is still here.]

I never said...it was anybody's fault. There's no fault here except with what destroyed our world. Your world. My world. [Still confusing...]

...You love her, don't you? The other me. [He's not sure how to deal with something like that, but he probably wouldn't know how to deal with it even if he was the female Maka.]

Be honest.

[Crona's about to respond ("It's not my fault you think I want you to go away") but Maka's next words hit like a blow to the chest (like a vector arrow, straight through lungs and viscera and bone).

Love.]

And...because of that, it's hard for you to accept that I am Maka, even if you say we have the same soul. You weren't actually saying you wanted me to go away, you just didn't know how to handle me or this whole situation.

[Ahem.]

...But just so you should know...I'd do anything you asked me to do. I care about you a lot and I want you to be happy, I'm disgusted with myself for doubting you.

I...

I didn't say that, you know? You're telling me I think things I don't. [Because Crona doesn't understand love, but doesn't think this jumbled-up mess of feelings and reactions and care is quite love. The meister's still somewhat shellshocked from the concept of maybe-love, but then that anger starts coming back, because Maka still won't listen.]

You keep saying I'm going to lie to you. If you didn't think I was going to lie to you you wouldn't have told me not to. But you did, so you think I'm going to lie. I'm not a liar. I hate lying.

I never wanted you to go away. You just decided that on your own. You decided that was what I wanted and you didn't listen!

...I fucked up.

[Maka please.]

I'm sorry. You don't have to say anything else to me, but I'm sorry.

[Maka doesn't want to listen. Maka just wants Crona to stop talking.]

Maka.... Maka is the most important other person in the world to me. I-if you think I'm just going to stop talking to you then you're not thinking straight.

No, I'm not. I'm not at all.

[At least he's being honest.]

I'm looking for Soul. I have a bad feeling that I'm going to find her with how everything else is going. Finding excuses to hate myself is all I can think to do right now.

....

You're right. You're not Maka. Maka wouldn't say something like that. Maka's brave, and Maka doesn't hate herself.

I'm not a "herself" either.

Besides which, how do you know that your Maka never has moments where she hates herself?

["Hates" is putting it too strongly, though, being a perfectionist and beating himself up for the slightest thing done wrong is more accurate. He should not be saying "hate" at all, but then again he's a stupid-ass teenager and shouldn't even be having this conversation.]

Your Maka also supposedly destroyed the Kishin. That's not a reality in my world. The reality is you were the one that was intent on becoming the next Kishin. But you're here now, I'm here now. What are we supposed to do with that?

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I know Maka. Maka doesn't hate herself. [Simple as that. Crona knows Maka.]

... maybe you didn't save me.

[Crona knows how to be cruel. Crona is Medusa's child.]

[The break.

He swings out his fist, consumed in rage and indignation, aimed for Crona's face.]

I TRIED! You didn't want to be saved! You wanted to become one with the Kishin! But I was going to reach into the Kishin and pull you back out again, you idiot!

[Maka's fist slams into Crona's face, and Ragnarok snarls inside Crona's mind, bloodlust rising. Crona takes the punch.]

When I ran away, you found me. Lady Medusa couldn't find me but you did.

When you ran away...

[He says, shaking.]

Medusa had you. She lied to me about you being captured by Arachne so I would cooperate with her. I fell right into Medusa's trap by killing Arachne, thinking she had you held hostage.

It was a lie. You were with Medusa the whole time, then you killed her.

... you trusted her. Lady Medusa. You trusted her?

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I wanted to believe she was telling the truth. I wanted to so badly, I convinced myself that she was.

[He rubs at his eyes with a sleeve and looks away.]

If it meant getting you back, yes, I entrusted my safety to Medusa.

You thought Lady Medusa would tell the truth?

Lady Medusa never ever tells the truth.

I know.

[At least he knows now.]

I was foolish, but...that tends to happen when I think about you.

[Crona shudders, trying to calm down. Black blood forms a dark bruise on Crona's cheekbone.

Crona wants to go home. Just make this all stop, please, someone.]

You said that Maka is the most important other person in your life...it's...the same for me too. You're the most important person in my life. If it hadn't been for you, I wouldn't be the person that you describe, though...it seems that I've gone backwards and have stopped being that person entirely.

You called me a liar.

[Crona just wants this to stop.]

I was scared.

[Ah.

Fear, the feelings of inadequacy, those feelings never go away.]

I'm not justified in that, that's not why I'm telling you this, just...I was scared of the idea of someone important to me not really wanting me to be around.

[If only they could just wake up and find that this had been all a dream.]

Maka... I'm never going to not want you around. Ever.

[He sniffs, wipes at his eyes again and looks off into the distance of the Skyway. Crona doesn't need to see him like this, especially not when they spoke of the Maka that's brave no matter what.

That's me. That is me, regardless of sex, but...gosh, courage isn't anything special, doesn't he know that?]

...Crona...I'm glad I'm not alone here. I'm glad that you're here. I wouldn't trade you for anybody else.

[A nod, not quite able to force a smile.]

I wouldn't trade you. Ever.

[When Maka feels that he's able to control his tears, he faces Crona again and takes a step towards them. Then another, and another, until finally he's in close enough proximity to Crona.

Silently, he holds open his arms, the obvious gesture asking for a hug.]

[Crona steps forward as well, and offers an awkward hug.]

[Crona you should know by now that Makas don't do awkward hugs, they go full out EMBRACE WITH ALL THE COURAGE OF THE WIND!!!]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...

[He's never going to stop saying that at this point.]

[And Maka, you should know by now that COURAGE EMBRACE is only going to get Crona to stiffen and freeze, panicked.

But Crona will try and be brave.]

I-i-i-it's okay, Maka.

I'll never--ever--push you away again. We're in this together and nothing will change that.

[Crona's hands twitch, closing in the fabric of Maka's shirt, and the pink-haired meister just sort of collapses against Maka, sobbing.]

[He's crying, they're crying, yes there's all these blubbery tears. It's really super embarrassing, actually.]

[Crona is never embarrassed by blubbery tears. Those are like Crona's specialty.]

[Having been relatively unable to find anyone who was available to head out with him, Ippo had at least been able to stop by the local blacksmith's to pick himself up a nice pair of metal gauntlets. He actually found Stuart to be quite the interesting individual...a little gruff, but generally nice; and his work was top notch, even under these circumstances.

He found himself wandering along the narrow paths, being careful not to stray too far away from his only way; lest he get stuck too far away, but he needed to get used to this at some point. He was just throwing a few practice jabs to get used to the weight of his new weapons when he spotted a moving, brightly colored bit of hair not too far away...

He'd seen the person at the food gathering not too long ago, but he hadn't gotten a chance to introduce himself...and it was better than being out here alone, so he made his way over and began waving his hand to get the person's attention as not to surprise them into attacking him by accident]

Hello? You live in the Bastion too, right? What brings you all the way out here by yourself?

[Crona twitches, shifting away from the stranger. The pink-haired teenager is a skittish person.

There's no weapon in Crona's hand. Not yet.]

I.... I wanted more shards, you know? To save them up.

Oh, well that makes sense, shards seem to be pretty important.

[Ippo hadn't been exactly planning on shard hunting today, this was just supposed to be a small outing to get his feet wet on the skyway. Still...it couldn't hurt to offer some assistance]

Do you mind if I tag along? I still have to get used to being out here and its much safer to travel together than it is to go alone.

[Crona glances sideways, not quite sure if working with someone else is what Crona wants to do.]

I don't know. Are your ears sensitive? That might be a bad thing. I can get loud.

I'm pretty used to being around loud things...boats can get pretty noisy and the gym was never quiet, so I'm sure I'll be just fine!

[Ippo smiled, but suddenly snapped to attention as if he'd forgotten something important; well...to him at least it was important. He straightened up and bowed politely to Crona, keeping his head low as he introduced himself]

I'm sorry, I almost forgot to introduce myself. I'm Ippo, Ippo Makunouchi. Its nice to meet you!

[Both those things are quieter than some of Crona's attacks, but that's okay. He says he'll be okay, and Crona will accept that.

A bow. Crona doesn't know how to deal with bowing and so just stares, a little awkward.]

I'm Crona.

I don't know if it's nice to meet you yet, you know? Since we might not get along.

[Oh hey it's that weird kid who does things sometimes.

If Crona hasn't seen Bon recently, he got an awesome haircut and his hair is a lot shorter now and without the blond stripe down the middle, so he looks less like a punk gangster. He's still got his piercings in, though.]

Yo, what are you up to?

I...

[Oh, it's... who is that?

.... ....]

Y-you changed your hair.

I kinda had to, there was...a scissors accident.

[He is still going to punch Night for that at some point.]

It's short.

[Yes, Crona. It's short.]

It got really messed up.

[He doesn't like it short, though it's a lot more manageable now.]

[Crona nods.]

Mine does too, sometimes, when I cut it.

[Crona's hair is always a choppy mess.]

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