Day 321 | A Walkabout

[twinked_witch]

Who: Megaera, OPEN
Open: Open
When: Day 321, pretty much all day
Where: Various places around the Bastion
What: Emo Megaera Is Emo
Format: Action or Prose, your choice
Warnings: None


Megaera had been thinking about things recently. About where the Bastion was headed, and what hope that might entail. While she'd come to accept that her former world was lost - and her world before that in turn, almost assuredly - it was still difficult to accept some of the things that were lost.

People were one thing. But the knowledge lost - and how much of the world's magic was going to be possibly forever crippled by not having enough arcane energy to cast more than three times per day without special tonics... That hurt more than anything. To someone who placed her identity as a wizard first and moremost, the idea of an entire world's development being lost - so much beyond her ability to know what to ask for, let alone to comprehend and use it - was really starting to get to her.

So she walked. Through the new forest, to the hot springs, to the very edges of the Bastion, out on her usual shard run... She'd been moving basically nonstop.

Where might you run into her?

Comments

[legendary_can_opener]

It's unfortunate. In this situation, there is little to be done about it. All you can do is adapt...

... ...

If you are worried about self-defense, all I can offer is how to wield a small blade.

[... there was no point in hiding her human form now, not when she was going to accompany them to the Ura camp tomorrow]

[twinked_witch]

I can work with more than that already. That isn't really the issue.

It's more that... Being dependent on a magic statue to gain more spells? That might not even be the ones I didn't get a chance to learn back home? That feels wrong, to me.

[legendary_can_opener]

[Mitellux let out a small snort at that]

Everything feels wrong, Megaera. Our home worlds were torn asunder and somehow we are the sole survivors of an immense tragedy.

Dwelling on that will not solve anything. One can either only adapt to the situation, or hide in the Bastion and allow the others to do the fighting required for this place's continued survival.

... [no, perhaps she should... try to be a bit more sympathetic??]

It is a difficult situation, but at least you do not have to face it alone. I know far too well what it is like to be on my own... I was in that swamp for quite some time before you and the others found me. It was not my first time I had to fend for myself in an alien situation, either.

[twinked_witch]

That's... True. It's all I can do now, really, is fight. And hope that there's something worth it in the end.

It's... It's painful. But what else can you do? I'm not sure I can give up. As in, my sense of duty compels me to keep going, even if those I held duty to are long dead...

[legendary_can_opener]

Rather than hold on to a duty that can no longer be fulfilled, perhaps you would be better served in finding something in this Bastion to anchor yourself. There is little that can be done about the pain that comes from the immense loss we have all endured other than the passage of time.

[twinked_witch]

True... But also not that easy. Not for my kind. When you become a Devil, your duty becomes part of who you are on a more literal level than most...

[legendary_can_opener]

... in that case, there is little I can offer to aid you. Except... perhaps the monument could be utilized in some way?

[twinked_witch]

I... Don't think that's the right thing to do?

It's just running away from the issue, rather than really getting past it, if you know what I mean?

But then, what do I do? You have a point...

[legendary_can_opener]

As I said, there is little I can offer to aid you other than my suggestion. You say it is ingrained in your very being, correct? In that case, do you truly believe you can 'get past it' without using some sort of third party power?

[twinked_witch]

... The honest answer is that I don't know...

[legendary_can_opener]

...

[Mitellux let out a small snort.]

Then instead of insisting it is part of your very nature, you should attempt to form a new duty for yourself, a new purpose, and observe what occurs from there.

You will then find out whether your old obligation is truly part of your very nature or not.

[twinked_witch]

It's... Complex. Or maybe not? I don't know. I'm pretty sure there's no history for 'Devil who suddenly has no logical cause'. The fact that I'm still kind of sane says something I guess? Maybe.

[Her pace of speech is quickening as she goes on about this....]

[legendary_can_opener]

... Calm yourself, Megaera. Breath. You are bringing undue stress upon yourself.

[twinked_witch]

... You're right. I just...

Why did it take this long for all this to come down on me, anyways?