Day 295 [Open]

[daughterofursa]

Who: Zuko and anyone
Open: Open!
When: Day 295
Where: Dragonfield
What: Rejection hurts.
Format: I'll match
Warnings: Honor

When it comes to rejection and disappointment, Zuko's had years of practice. It should help that it wasn't really a rejection exactly, just nothing changing. Aoi didn't reject her as a person. They're still friends. Awkward friends, for the moment, as anyone who joins the morning swim lessons can probably attest to.

But this is the first time she's tried to handle it without getting angry. No one did anything wrong, so there's no one to be angry with, not even herself this time. She didn't do anything wrong, right? She doesn't think so, but there's still this feeling that won't go away, and maybe it is her fault.

What would Uncle tell her? It's hard to imagine. He only ever tried to talk to her about boys, and she always changed the subject.

She made tea for herself anyway to see if it would help, but in the end she just winds up sitting with the cup forgotten in her hands. Kizuna plays nearby, attacking various plants by the shore.

Comments

[daughterofursa]

Yeah. It is.

[...maybe Azula really means it?]

[fireburn]

[go with that]

So who was the girl?

[daughterofursa]

A friend of mine.

[Let's still try to exercise some caution.]

[fireburn]

Do you have a plan now?

[azula could attempt to kill her if that would make you feel better]

[daughterofursa]

[No. No that would be the exact opposite of better.]

A plan?

The plan is to get over it.

[fireburn]

To give up? Sister, please, you're better than that.

[daughterofursa]

What do you expect me to do? I can't make her feel something.

[fireburn]

You can try.

[daughterofursa]

She doesn't like women.

[What, do you expect her to turn into a man or something??]

[fireburn]

Maybe she doesn't know that she does yet.

[daughterofursa]

That's--

[...actually a fair point maybe.]

I don't want to... make things weird.

[Also she doesn't know how to go about making a person realize that if it's something they don't already know especially after getting asked out and everything.]

[fireburn]

It sounds like they're weird already.

[daughterofursa]

They're getting back to normal.

[Sort of. Not really. Gradually?]

[fireburn]

Really? She's going to let you still be friends?

[daughterofursa]

Yeah.

She's pretty amazing that way.

[fireburn]

[gross]

Well, I hope it works out, then.

[daughterofursa]

...thanks.

[Yeah this is still super weird. Still...]

I like this a lot better than trying to kill each other.

[fireburn]

Me too.

[its like being on vacation if you forget the part where they're stuck and their home world is allegedly gone]

[daughterofursa]

[Or like... being sisters? But vacation from killing each other works too.]

I guess, if you ever need to talk, I can listen, too.

[fireburn]

[well yeah....that too...]

Thanks, but I'm. Fine, really.

[daughterofursa]

[Well that was somewhat less convincing than Azula usually is.]

You sure?

[fireburn]

[she's quiet for a moment]

Do you really believe home is gone?

[daughterofursa]

...

No one can say for sure. But it feels like it is.

I'm not counting on finding a way back.

[Please do not take this as confirmation and flip out kthx.]

[fireburn]

[it's okay there are a few factors here:

1. its zuko and zuko makes poor life decisions
2. this zuko is a girl so even if her world was dead, azula's might not be. and azula's is superior obviously because is where shes from]

That doesn't trouble you?

[daughterofursa]

Of course it does.

But I've been there before. Wanting to get home so badly, I lost sight of who I was. I wasn't there for the people I cared about either.

I need to focus on what I have.