So unless you're a terrible pessimist by nature, I would listen to that.

[ The knight gives a thin smile. Somewhat sympathetic, somewhat 'just focus on other things'. ]

It will hurt, not being sure, or thinking them gone forever. But dwelling on it, that's not terribly good for you either. Would she be happy with you, constantly dragging yourself down because she ought to be here? Or, if miracles on miracles and she finds us, we find her, would she be proud to see you doing your best, pain and all?