[He's trying not to cry, he really is. Bon hates showing his emotions like this. He doesn't want anyone to see him in a moment of weakness like this, where he's so close to breaking down.
But not here, he decides. Keep it in until he's home and alone, that's what he's got to do.
So he takes a few shaky breaths, and then he nods, to show that he's okay. Well, okay enough to pretend that he's okay.]
Right. Let's...let's go back.
[He feels like he's leaving a piece of his soul here, but he also knows that the hurt (not just from the snakes, but from everything. The ash, the memories of what used to be, everything.) will swallow him alive if he gives it a chance. He has to leave this in his past now, without looking back.]
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But not here, he decides. Keep it in until he's home and alone, that's what he's got to do.
So he takes a few shaky breaths, and then he nods, to show that he's okay. Well, okay enough to pretend that he's okay.]
Right. Let's...let's go back.
[He feels like he's leaving a piece of his soul here, but he also knows that the hurt (not just from the snakes, but from everything. The ash, the memories of what used to be, everything.) will swallow him alive if he gives it a chance. He has to leave this in his past now, without looking back.]