A stroll through the gardens... ( Day 69 )

[yinyangfox]

Who: Seimei and anyone/everyone else he happens across.
When: Day 69
Where: All about the Bastion.
What: Familiarizing himself with the denizens.
Format: Action
Warnings: None likely.




[ Having decided against taking up residence in the apartments and bowing out as gracefully as possible, Seimei had elected to sleep under a tree, leaning back against the bark, expression serene. He was untroubled, it seemed, by his plight and the plight of others. Just another obstacle to overcome. Rising early - so far as he could judge time - before anyone else appeared to be wandering about, the onmyoji decided to spend his time exploring, pacing the perimeter of the Bastion and fanning himself idly with his tessen as he hummed a nameless tune.

Without any particular purpose or direction, he eventually begins a spiraling path in towards the center, stopping on occasion to watch the horizon, inspect a plant or, if possible, gather an idle person to walk with him with the intention of learning about the Bastion, but more importantly, about them. He has a deep curiosity and need for knowledge, and while he would be loathe to admit it, he enjoyed socializing. Without the social stigmas of his birth and occupation that he faced in Heian Kyoto, it doesn't seem unlikely that he could make friends here.

That, and he wanted to distract himself from the inevitable need to accept that he would likely never again see Hiromasa, the only friend he had ever really known.

So it is, without any particular direction, Seimei sets to explore and socialize, unperturbed by race, gender or species. After all, at the end of the day, who was he to judge?

Each person he comes across is cordially greeted and invited to walk with him. ]

Anou, sumimasen.

[ He began every time, offering a polite bow and smiling behind the curve of his paper fan. ]

I am Abe no Seimei. I only arrived yesterday and was wondering if you would have a moment to speak.

Comments

[yinyangfox]

[ He walked alongside her, listening thoughtfully before raising a brow with a smile. ]

There are differences. Demon is more of a blanket term, really. What you are isn't specifically a demon in the sense that we use in Heian Kyoto. the term must have changed over time. There are different yokai: henge, oni, and you are half akuma. I am half henge. Together we are both yokai, both half demon.

I do not recognize these terms "Assiah" and "Gehenna", but I understand the principle. In the Heian period, many people can see demons if they want to be seen, but humans do not have the sight on their own. It seems the same is true in the future, only there are less people making the effort to police the thin lines.

[ He sighs softly, arching a brow and shaking his head. ]

You may not think so, but I sympathize with you. I sincerely do. Straddling the worlds is never easy. Even less so when you have external evidence, like yourself. I can only imagine how difficult it must have been for you. Look at me; I merely evoke the visage of a fox, I do not even really look like one, yet I regularly dealt with the accusations of others. More than once I have longed to run the forest paths with my mother, but I am forever forbidden that world. Now, I do not even know if that world exists. All of us, displaced. All of us together, yet very much alone.

[hellpyre]

... I didn't know that. We don't really... talk about the differences. A demon is a demon, it's just the breed that gets named. But... I guess that makes sense.

[Though would he be saying that, if he knew who her father was?]

Assiah, Earth. Gehenna, Hell. That's the terms exorcists use anyway.

[His next comment caused her to pull a face, lips pursing tight.]

Did you know from the start, though... ?

[yinyangfox]

What you were? Absolutely. That is part of what I am. I see everything for what it truly is. Sometimes I don't immediately understand, or sometimes I don't really know why it matters, but I can always sense the truth under the lie or the face behind the mask. In Heian Kyoto my abilities are very valuable, as demons tend towards mischief that is distressing to humans. I doubt that has changed much by your time. [ He remarks with a faint smirk, feet keeping a steady, patient pace. ]

You could have hidden everything about yourself, and I still would have known, Lady Rin, but it has nothing to do with your inability to blend, and everything to do with my inability to look the other way. I cannot close my eyes to the truth. I can, however, keep secrets. I am very good at that, in fact. So if there is any reason you would wish to hide, in this new world, then I will respectfully maintain silence on my knowledge.

[hellpyre]

Yeah, well... I didn't always know. I was raised as a human, by a human, with a father and a sister who knew the truth and didn't tell me until it was already too late.

[She doesn't hate them for it; she understands now why they did what they did, but it still hurts, no matter how much she accepts it.

That much shows on her face. Even if she tried to lie, her expressions also betrayed her true feelings more often than not.]

There's no point in hidin' it anymore, but... thank you.

[yinyangfox]

No thanks required, Lady Rin. I can see it troubles you. I imagine it would. There is a lot of negativity suggested by an akuma bloodline. However, it is how you conduct yourself, and the choices you make, that define you as a person. Not your blood. You may be driven to extremes, or drawn to certain things - sometimes possessed of overpowering urges that you fall victim to. These things are all subject to choice. Who you want to be is more important than who you are. If you want to be human, and you choose to live as one, then you have a human heart and no one has the power to change that. No matter what anyone says or does, Lady Rin, you are what you choose to be. Even if you sometimes fail to completely control your urges, it is your ability to feel remorse that separates you from anything evil.

[ He smiled softly, facing forward as they walked, hands folded into his sleeves. ]

I think you might need to hear that. My mother told me that, the last time I saw her.

[hellpyre]

[She wished she could believe that. She wished she could believe him, but as similar as they were, Rin had a much different life from Seimei, and her experiences had shaped her in to a very different kind of half-demon.]

It... it ain't like that for me, though. Way I see it... I ain't either anymore. Not human, not demon. And all I can do is keep movin' forward, and back home that was becomin' an exorcist so I could become stronger, and so no one else would ever die for me again.

But here... I'unno what that means.

[She stopped walking, head down, fingers clutching at her arm and digging in hard enough to make her skin welt red.]

I just know I gotta protect people here, too, and none of that depends on me bein' human or demon.

[yinyangfox]

Lady Rin... [ He tilts his head slightly, arching a brow in Rin's direction and smiling reassuringly.] Perhaps I should point out that this is not the life you lead before. Everything that shaped you before is not nearly as relevant. In this place, for those reasons, you are able to live completely free of who you were.

This is not your world or my world. This is a new place. A blank slate. The only thing in this place that can hold you back from changing your life is yourself. You would be wise to take that into consideration. Any internal pain that you suffer is your own making. You are bound by chains of your own creation, because no one else is here to judge you but yourself.

[hellpyre]

... that's... that's true. Yeah.

[It didn't completely alleviate her worries, and it might not ever get rid of them completely, but she did feel better about who she was, and her current state of being.

That was something to be grateful for.]

Thank you, Seimei-san. And I'm sorry for bein' so difficult earlier...

[yinyangfox]

Difficult? My friend, you have no idea what difficult is, in the life of an onmyoji. Then again, perhaps you do. It is my understanding you were training to be an exorcist, one of the many duties of being an onmyoji. If you are fretting over an incomplete education, I would be more than happy to teach you. Slowly. On your own time, in ways that you may better understand.

[ He offers a warm smile in lieu of a hug; unfortunately he is from a time where physical touch is considerably less appropriate in anything other than an intimate relationship. He wants to comfort her, certainly, but is stifled by etiquette and propriety. At the least his expression, with dark eyes and a gentle smile, hopefully suggests what he cannot make himself do for fear of grievous insult. ]

I do not think you are not smart, Lady Rin. I simply think that classrooms and lectures are too much for a free-spirit to endure. Whenever curiosity guides you, I will happily teach you anything you wish to know. I will not, of course, be able to teach you what you would necessarily learn in a "modern" classroom, but I suppose a "classical" education never hurt anyone. Besides, I bet you the way we did things in Heian Kyoto were considerably more universal, elegant and effective. It was a matter of daily life for us.

[hellpyre]

[She wasn't going to fault him for that. As ignorant as Rin could be, she wasn't completely without understanding of other people. She could tell from the start that Seimei was the refined type, and not the kind of person that was about to go around hugging girls having a mild existential crisis.]

Eheh... w-well I'm not really worried 'bout learnin' much anymore... except maybe pickin' up sword training again. I mean it's more about surviving now anyway, innit?

Still... nice to hear some one not actually get all over my case for not bein' smart.

[yinyangfox]

You keep saying you aren't smart. [ He sighs, shaking his head and continuing on their casual walk. ]

I do not believe you. I think that circumstances in your life may have driven you to believe that, but you are likely more clever than you give yourself credit for. Either way, I respect your decision. even so, please do no hesitate to come and talk, from time to time. so far....you are the only person I can make any connection with. I feel like a dusty relic with some of these people. Or at the very least, a bizarre oddity to be an amusement, more than a serious and respected individual.

[hellpyre]

Other people tell me I'm not.

['Other people' being mostly her sister, or those who would compare her to Yuki. She IS a teenager, and that's a difficult age on it's own without having other people dragging you down.]

I think we're all a little odd here, though. The other people here are pretty nice, though. You should give 'em a chance at least.

[yinyangfox]

I give everyone all the chances in the world, Lady Rin. Believe me, I do. Time will tell, I suppose. If they come to me, then I will treat them with all the courtesy and dignity one can afford. that is my goal here. I am introducing myself, I am choosing to meet them. Should they not endeavor to speak with me afterwards....then I have done as courtesy demands and nothing more is required of me.

[hellpyre]

... yeah, I know. I just want everyone to get along, y'know? I know that's a tall order, but we're the last survivors. It'd be sad not to be able to work together.

[yinyangfox]

It is the nature of all things to exist in a perpetual state of conflict... [ He trailed off for a moment, a feeling of deja vu striking him before he shakes it off. ] ...Fighting for space, resources, dominance. It is simply the way of things. However I do agree. It would be a pity if we could not all exist in a state of unity, instead.

[hellpyre]

We can try, though... right?

[Rin was still a little sheltered, and while she had a temper and often got in to fights before going to True Cross, she really didn't know how the rest of the world worked all that well. To her, the conflicts were with demons, and it was rare for her to see just how truly cruel humans could be to other humans.]

[yinyangfox]

Of course we can, Lady Rin. All we -can- do is try, really. I promise to make my best effort, at any rate. And you - you promise to acknowledge that while you may not be as smart as some people in some things, you're likely smarter than other people in other things. You're certainly better at socializing than I am, that much is evident.

[hellpyre]

I am a pretty awesome cook! Not everyone can say that!

[yinyangfox]

Very true. I can hardly cook at all, and I am a master of brewing potions and making poultices, so you would think the skill might come naturally. Alas, I usually have Mitsumushi or a shikigami cook for me. honestly, I haven't eaten much at all since arrivi--Ahem. Well, never mind that. At any rate, to have skill in culinary arts is certainly admirable.

[ The onmyoji cleared his throat, corrected himself and moved on. he had promise himself he wouldn't mention food. He was no one else's responsibility. And yet, he could not possibly ask for food, no matter how hungry he was. He would either provide for himself or go hungry, and so far it had been the latter, as he owned nothing in this place. ]

[hellpyre]

[Too late, Seimei. She caught that.]

Wait wait back up, why haven't you been eating?

[yinyangfox]

[ Sighing softly, the onmyoji clears his throat and flicks his tessen open, fanning his face lightly to chase away the blush of embarrassment. ]

Because I did not bring any food with me, and it is not my right to ask for food from others, when they too must eat. To rely on the hospitality of others is dishonorable. I would be insulting others if I asked for food.

You need not worry, Lady Rin. I can subsist on a very light diet, or nothing at all, for a long time. When I was in training, I once meditated in the forest for a month with nothing but water to survive on. I assure you, I will be fine until I acquire food of my own.

[hellpyre]

... it's not hospitality if we're all in the same boat, though. We're supposed to look out for one another.

[yinyangfox]

[ He really doesn't have much to say on the matter. It isn't a position he's used to being in, so he just falls silent for several moments before finally speaking. ]

It is...considered a severe breach of etiquette to ask for food, Lady Rin. If it is not offered, you do not receive it. It is, conversely, rude not to be offered food, but it is more inappropriate to ask for it so...I have not. Being in the same position does not necessarily mean hospitality is to be expected. Resources are limited and I am willing to accept that others may not want to spread them thinner than they already are.

[hellpyre]

Then... then next time I'm just gonna offer it to you! That's the right thing to do! Food brings people together and helps keep us strong and I'm not just gonna let you starve 'cause no one else has bothered to ask!

[Sorry, Seimei, you've hit on something she's passionate about, and she's not going to take no for an answer.]

[yinyangfox]

[ All he could do was smile and chuckle in reply, shaking his head as he did. Stopping briefly, the onmyoji turned and bowed to Rin in gratitude. ]

Then I must gracefully accept your offer. I eagerly await an opportunity to dine with you, Lady Rin, and I am honored by the invitation.