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thebastion2015-07-17 07:54 pm
daughterofursa) wrote in thebastion2015-07-17 07:54 pm
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Day 325 [Open]
Who: Zuko, Colin, Ikuri, and anyone else!
Open: Open!
When: Day 325
Where: Around the Bastion, Dragonfield
What: Time for some Talks
Format: I'll match
Warnings: Honor. Also fury, and not much patience.
It's been a few days since the disaster of Crona's death. Zuko would like to think that that's given her time and distance to process it, but most of her feelings haven't changed much since their return. If anything, she's just forced herself to focus on other things, and avoid dealing with her grief, and her guilt. Not that she's realized it.
It probably doesn't help that she hasn't gotten a decent night's sleep since. But she's used to that, and if she's going to lose sleep, she can at least do it standing guard instead of tossing and turning. She's been taking regular shifts guarding the prisoners, and she's taken to carrying her swords with her within the Bastion, as a precaution not only against escape attempts, but any threat of outside attack as well.
And the swords are also for Colin. Once she's finished a guard shift, she'll be looking for him to take him up on his challenge, and also for Ikuri, for the talk she thinks she's clear-headed enough now to give.
[Later...]
Besides all that, she is still a dragon mom, and that's probably the only thing that's gotten her to settle down at all. Later in the day, she can be found near dragonfield attempting to teach Kizuna how to breathe fire. In addition to a short demonstration, this seems to involve lying down on the ground with the little dragon on her chest so she can feel Zuko's breathing.
So far it doesn't seem to be working, but neither of them appear discouraged. For Kizuna's part, it may be because she doesn't know she's supposed to be breathing fire.
Open: Open!
When: Day 325
Where: Around the Bastion, Dragonfield
What: Time for some Talks
Format: I'll match
Warnings: Honor. Also fury, and not much patience.
It's been a few days since the disaster of Crona's death. Zuko would like to think that that's given her time and distance to process it, but most of her feelings haven't changed much since their return. If anything, she's just forced herself to focus on other things, and avoid dealing with her grief, and her guilt. Not that she's realized it.
It probably doesn't help that she hasn't gotten a decent night's sleep since. But she's used to that, and if she's going to lose sleep, she can at least do it standing guard instead of tossing and turning. She's been taking regular shifts guarding the prisoners, and she's taken to carrying her swords with her within the Bastion, as a precaution not only against escape attempts, but any threat of outside attack as well.
And the swords are also for Colin. Once she's finished a guard shift, she'll be looking for him to take him up on his challenge, and also for Ikuri, for the talk she thinks she's clear-headed enough now to give.
[Later...]
Besides all that, she is still a dragon mom, and that's probably the only thing that's gotten her to settle down at all. Later in the day, she can be found near dragonfield attempting to teach Kizuna how to breathe fire. In addition to a short demonstration, this seems to involve lying down on the ground with the little dragon on her chest so she can feel Zuko's breathing.
So far it doesn't seem to be working, but neither of them appear discouraged. For Kizuna's part, it may be because she doesn't know she's supposed to be breathing fire.
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[She sniffled a bit, not bothering to wipe away the tears trickling down as she looked at Zuko; again, there was a brief flash of despair in her eyes]
Are you the right person? I don't know, I ... I don't know anything about this kind of stuff... I mean, I didn't even know anything about milking cows until I made the stupid jerky cows and people yelled at Ibuki but-
... ... I ... I can't even fight anymore... [She used to go out to gather shards but... lately, she's been staying exclusively around the Bastion] I'm scared of what'll happen if I try to pick up a weapon again...
[for more reasons than most people would have. She wasn't sure what telling Zuko this would accomplish, she was just kind of saying the first things that came to mind]
... but... but you're still trying and I... I think that's... what you need to keep doing, Zuko-chan. I still believe you can do it... I believe in you.
[... she'd never actually said as much to Zuko before but, that didn't make it any less true.]
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[Does she deserve that?
She's been down this road before, feeling like she didn't deserve people's friendship, like she hadn't done anything to merit their approval. But there must be something, there's a reason Ibuki believes in her, even if she can't see it right now.
She can feel Kizuna trying to nuzzle into her hand, and she glances down. If people are counting on her, they're not counting on her because they think she'll fail. Right?
Zuko sniffs and scrubs a hand across her face before her tears have a chance to fall.]
...
Thanks. A-and, sorry.
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It's... I... I know it's hard... I've seen too many people die...
[... actually was responsible for a number of deaths.]
... I just don't want anybody to give up.
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It always should be hard, shouldn't it?
If it's easy, then... it's like it doesn't matter. Like their lives weren't worth anything.
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You're right... you're totally right.
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[She says it like it should be obvious. Who else would be so awful?]
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[Ibuki can't hide her surprise, but... well, Ibuki's not really the type to take sides here.]
W-well, um...
... ... he really said that?
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[Well, not in so many words. It may not be what he was trying to say either, but it's what Zuko got out of it.]
He thinks I'm a failure and I'm going to get more people killed. And it'll only ever be my fault.
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I know I messed up, but... I still got everyone else back, didn't I? He can't blame me for Crona and not give me any credit for the rest. That's not fair!
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[she reaches out for Zuko's hand, intending to give it a comforting squeeze]
I don't know what's going on between you and-... Colin-chan [she didn't want to add any complications to this conversation by calling Colin 'papa' in front of Zuko] but um...
I think a lot of other people appreciate what you do. Including me, for sure!
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She doesn't really respond to Ibuki's hand, but she doesn't push her away.]
...
Yeah.
It shouldn't matter what he thinks. He's just some jerk.
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So just worry about who you do care about, Zuko-chan!
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But Ibuki's right. She shouldn't let it get to her this much. Colin just said a lot of things her father would have said to her. Things she still says to herself, despite her best efforts not to. That doesn't make any of them right. She should listen to the people who actually respect and care about her.]
You're right. Aoi would never say that. Neither would Paarthurnax, or Rin, or any of my friends.
[She's pretty sure about that. At least 70%.]
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Right? You wouldn't want to let your girlfriend down! Especially when we're so close to having all the cores!
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[Did she even tell Ibuki?
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Ah! You didn't deny it!
Does that mean you and Aoi-chan smooched and became girlfriends??
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What- You didn't know?
1/2
[... about... certain stuff that... she should probably tell Aoi about someday.]
2/2
[... Ibuki don't push them along so fast]
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W- we're not engaged!
[Though her hand goes to her chest where the amulet of mara from Paarthurnax usually rests. She's not wearing it today.]
Ibuki Mioda, master of mood whiplash
Aw... but oh, oh, guess what? Ibuki is!
[she holds out her hand so that Zuko can see the gold ring with the citrine set into it]
it's impressive. good job.
This is... an engagement... ring? [They don't have that custom in the Fire Nation but she does know about engagement necklaces.]
You're really engaged?
[She's not completely sure Ibuki might not be kidding her.]
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