Unfortunately, that's the best answer I can give. The only person I know who's lived anywhere near Paar's length is my dad, and... the centuries have not been kind to him.

[Colin shakes his head.]

Paarthurnax seems a little more at peace with things than he is, but you don't live for thousands of years without building up a lot of regrets, "I should have"s, and things you wish you'd done differently.

The only person who can tell you how Paar views himself is Paar himself. Anything I tried to say would be a guess with no basis in reality.