[Zulf stays quiet for a little while longer as he sorts through his thoughts. He doesn't want to lie- that wouldn't help at all for one thing- but the truth is just... such a frightening beast to handle.]

After I came to Caelondia and after I found out the truth of what the Mancers were prepared to use on the Terminals... I became enraged. I did something foolish. I can admit that now, in hindsight. I won't regret the emotions I felt then, that I still feel sometimes, but my actions... put people I cared about in danger.

[His own people, and Raile, and Zia.. He tried to convince the boy not to go, but not hard enough.]

In the end, I ended up cornered and... If it wasn't for Raile, I wouldn't be here right now.

[Not as he is now. If Raile had ignored him, never forgiven him, just moved past with the Shard in his possession... Even with the Restoration protocols pulled through, would he have been able to bring himself to even look at Zia? Would he have been able to go ahead with that plan to try and make everything right? Would he even have any hope for it?]

I thought I'd managed to get over the event, or at least that it hadn't affected me as much as it inevitably did... But to find myself surrounded, knowing weapons could be turned on myself at any moment... I froze up.