thebastion | [Day 205] [CLOSED] When days seem meaningless don't go and lie

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[Day 205] [CLOSED] When days seem meaningless don't go and lie

WHO: Rin and Bon
OPEN: Closed
WHEN: Day 205
WHAT: It's finally time to go home.
WHERE: Tower Apartments
FORMAT: Prose
WARNINGS: Rin being herself, couple talking about being a couple (Don't look, Yukio)

"I didn't think it was possible to miss this place as much as I did..."

It was hard to think of any place in the Bastion as strictly "home". The word may have been used, but for most it was with a tinge of something missing, something distant and long since destroyed. Right now, though? After spending as long as she did in the hospital, Rin was more than happy to consider this place as something closer to that.

She walked in with Bon (Yukio still at the hospital caring for those who were on the road to recovery) and haphazardly tossed her bag of belongings to the side in the living room, walking over to the couch and promptly faceplanting in to it.

"Mnnn couch..."

Yup. It was good to be back.

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She knows that look, too. She's seen it plenty of times and can tell when he's trying to over analyze the situation.

So she smirks, reaching up to prod him in the nose lightly.

"He took good care of me, and everyone else, so stop worryin' about what happened and just be grateful we both made it through."

Would a kiss make you stop thinking so much, Bon?

It certainly would go a long way to getting him to relax. Sometimes he forgets how to do that.

The boop on his nose brings him back around though, and the wrinkles are gone from his brow. Now he's focused on Rin, though he still looks worried.

"Mmn...yeah, I guess I've just been thinking about it a lot. But that won't help now, will it? It's all done with."

She knows. Which is why she's trying to get him to relax right now. They're home and she survived.

"It's just another thing we got through together. So breathe a little, okay?"

At that, he manages a weak smile.

"I'll try."

No promises, but trying is a lot for him. Because whenever he tries, he usually pushes through until he succeeds.

But there is something else weighing on his mind, it has been ever since they found the snake-demons, but he just hasn't found a way to bring it up yet. Maybe now would be a good time?

"Say...feeling up for talking about something? Or do you just want to rest."

It's better than not doing anything about it at all.

"Hm? What'd you wanna talk about?"

"Well, remember that one time we talked about families and stuff? After the trip to the temple?"

Yep, that's the kind of discussion Bon wants. Because he's ready to talk about those things now. This whole experience has made him realize a few things.

... oh.

"Yeah, I remember that..."

"Do you feel up for talking about it?"

Because if Rin is tired, he can understand that. Or if she's not ready for it. Or anything.

Her tail swishes behind her back as she nods to him.

"I'm fine with that. I mean, it's... important enough to bring up, right?"

Bon nods in return.

"Yeah, I just... want to have everything our in the open. Because it's a really important topic."

"Okay. I'm fine with that."

She'll just... get out of your space there since serious talk is probably not the time to be there.

Yeah probably not. But he'll still reach for her hand, because he wants to hold on to some part of her.

"Everything that's happened, it's just made me realize a few things. Like how fragile we are, for one, but also how quickly something can go wrong. And knowing that, I don't want to leave anything unsaid, just in case something does go wrong someday, and one of us doesn't make it back."

This is where he starts to look a little embarrassed. Even for a serious talk, it's hard to actually say these things.

"I...well, I love you. And I want to be a part of your life, and share everything with you. Including...some of the stuff I haven't really been so sure about before."

She's fine with that, of course, and even turns sideways on the couch with her legs folded under her, hand turned up to thread her fingers through his. She listens closely, frowning worriedly at his words. She hated to think about it at all, but it was something they couldn't really ignore either.

But it's her turn to flush when he says that, and she realizes that it's the first time he's really said those three words together to her. Her tail even starts to thump on the couch excitedly, a bit of red even creeping in to her ears.

What was he saying? Oh. Right.

"Stuff you haven't been so sure about--... oh. Ohh you mean-- that stuff I was teasin' you about before... ?"

It was indeed a worry of his, especially after they both almost-died in the last week. If anything had gone wrong, one of them (or even both) could have ended up in a funeral pyre. And this wasn't the first time Rin had almost died, either.

But for as serious as the topic is, Bon finds himself feeling small and unsure. This isn't exactly something he's had to seriously discuss before.

"Yeah, that stuff. I'd be okay with it now, I think."

There's a short pause before he quickly adds, "Not right now, I mean, at some point in the near future, instead of like. Years from now."

"W-well yeah, I still feel like crap anyway but--..."

She fidgeted, rubbing her thumb over his fingers in some small effort to calm him.

"Are you really sure? 'cause I mean, I was jokin' that day. I wouldn't wanna push you in to somethin'."

It does help, along with Rin's reassuring words. But Bon is sure of this, so he's going to say as much, even if just saying the word is tough.

"I'm sure. Trust me, I had plenty of time to myself to think it over. I just think that, well, it wouldn't really change that much between us, I don't think. We're already together, and I can't imagine anything short of dying would break us up."

He might be a little naive there, but with the world literally ripped apart, a lot of the troubles they would have had suddenly don't exist anymore.

"And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't curious about it, too."

"I am, too..."

Whoops that sure was making her face red. A smile does manage to work on to her features, and she straightens up.

"I'm glad you feel that way, though. Like... really glad."

Oh good, she's alright with the idea of doing sex-things with him. He was a little worried that she might not be ready for that. It sounds like they're agreeing about it now, though.

"Yeah, me too. It's what couples do, right? And if we're gonna have kids in the future, we'll have to do it eventually anyway."

Of course she is!

"I-I dunno about kids! But... yeah. I mean, that's not the only thing about bein' together..."

Awkward teenagers being awkward about awkward teenage things.

"I do wanna... try it. With you. Eventually."

"Kids are for way in the future when we could take care of them!"

Yeah, even though he thinks he's ready for sex, he's definitely not ready for kids. Still way too young for that.

But they could take care of Tepig and see if they could handle raising a thing that's not a child. Maybe that will show how good of parents they could be.

Also, Bon calms down a bit after that first outburst, so his voice is more normal when he speaks again. "Yeah. We can try it, when we're ready. And not exhausted or sick or anything."

Which was why Bon wanted to have the talk now. If they can talk about it beforehand, then at least they'll both know they want it later, when it comes up again.

Which is something Rin doubts would ever happen with her. Kids? Her? With anyone? As much as she loves Bon (and she does) that idea just leaves her feeling nervous and uncertain inside. What kind of child would some one like her bring in to the world, and would they grow to hate her for the heritage she would have no choice in passing down.

This seems to weigh on her mind, so much so that she barely notices the outburst, and her tail droops to the couch as her gaze shifts away.

Bon definitely notices that shift in behavior, and he begins to worry. Maybe she didn't actually want any of this? Or maybe thinking about the possibility of losing each other is too much for her?

"Rin? What's wrong?"

"I--... I don't... d'you really think I'm gonna be able to... I mean, knowin' what I am, would that really be okay... ?"

"What, us being together? Or you having kids someday?"

That first one should be obvious. They've been dating for months, and anyone who would have given Rin shit for it is dead. But if this is about Rin becoming a mother, then that would be a whole different challenge.

"The last thing."

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