"I was not imagining us here. I was imagining us in Kyoto. I was still in standing with the court. I was able to give you the world and we were raising a son that would inherit my name. I was introducing you to my mother. You were in the finest fashion money could buy. You were happy..."

He trailed off, eyes still closed. It was almost as effective as hiding behind the fan. More so in some ways. Without seeing Kaoru's expression Seimei didn't have to fear the effect of what he said.

"I was able to make you happy."